For the past couple of days I have really been looking at my life and the things that I allow in it...Or that I do not allow in it...This is good and a bad thing...I have so many different feelings rolling around in my head...I just really want to move far away and start a new life...I really need a friend around or friends around me I am learning...I am learning that it is really hard for me to make new friends as an adult...I really do not like letting people get to close to me...seems like the older women get the more catty they become...It does not help that my Husband is not a social butterfly either...
I think that I am finely coming to terms that the dream I had when I was younger about my husband and my friends getting together all the time and having date nights with those friends has completely DIED! This is very sad for me...very depressing. Not sure what do,feel,or whatever about this anymore...I think that I am just going to concentrate on my marriage and kids for now...After all, that is the most important thing in my life.
4 comments:
Hey don't sweat it....MIke is not a soical guy at all and some of the friends we do make.... he offends...with his Mikeness...I have just had to find friends that except us for us...Honestly..I think we would be friendless if it wasen't for church....
I went through the same thing and then we moved, sometimes a change is good...
I am glad that we have kinda gotten to know each other!!
Thanks Heather...That is how Ed is too. He has 1 great friend and that is all...I would love to move but Ed won't...I am also glad that we have gotten to know each other also...ok, I am crying now...LOL
Oh... dont cry...I am prego remember.... Way overly sensitive. Maybe a move is not what you need...find something new like a hobbie and try to learn what ever...During this time it is hard for me also..the holidays sorta depress me....with all of our family and most of our good friends being so far away...so... I make chocolate...All kinds I go over board and give it out to anyone who wants it...It keeps my mind off things and it really puts a smile to everyone face to give then chocolate...If you need anything...just let me know...
All we can do is focus on the people and things that are wonderful in our lives and bring us great joy. It doesn't even seem like xmas time so much to me. I also go through phases where i get depressed cause i miss my dad and grams so much and then both of their bdays were also this month so it is a double whammy! I hope next year is kickass for all of us and not so damn sucky! I have learned that unfortunately men and friends have come and gone. I miss having gfs to connect with and do stuff with but since i don't get out as much it makes it hard and i feel frustrated with it all. just know i love you and i hope we have a friendship for many years to come..
love ya,
Aims
Post a Comment